Benefits dating ugly guy
My husband, unlike all the men I’d dated before him, was handsome.In the early days of us dating, he’d often catch me looking at him.He was defiantly confident and self-assured in a way that now seems rooted more in overcompensation.Beyond the physical, Simon was repulsive in other ways.I confessed to a friend shortly before our first date that I didn’t know what I’d do if he kissed me, if I’d be able to stomach it.But Simon and I had a lot in common and he made me laugh.He slightly lifted his leg and farted on our second date with a well-timed cough that he must have thought would cover it up (it didn’t).
He carried a satchel with him always, refusing to take it off even when sitting down in a restaurant.
It was a look I can only describe as of pity or confusion, because what else could it be for someone to look at us: a beautiful young woman dating an ugly old man. Having been neglected in my marriage by a man I’d been with for ten years meant I had very little sense of my place in the world of men now that I was “single.” I didn’t feel attractive or desirable and had been oblivious to any male attention while I’d been faithfully married.
The first man I dated following my separation was Simon, going on my first date with him just five days after I ended my marriage. So much so, that I had no idea how I’d get over it.
My husband was clean-cut, preppy, just a few years older than me.
He could have been a member of the Kennedy family with how much he resembled a healthy honest Irish-Catholic.